ever the defeated one

Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to get pregnant. Like I'm chasing after something that's just NOT meant to be.

And it makes me so very sad.

Sad because I'm losing hope. And sad because I don't deserve to be going through all of this. And sad because I am tired of being so bitter. And sad because I am tired of feeling so guilty for wanting to live a life that doesn't revolve around TTC.

And I'm just so sad about all of it. And I don't have anyone (IRL) that really understands how I feel.