Tonight The Monkey and I are going to head to the local Drive-In to see Fast & Furious and The House on the Left. Mostly we're interested in Fast & Furious, the second movie is just a bonus. (Gotta love double features!) The movies start at approximately 7:45 so I'm guessing we'll head out somewhere for dinner around four. I guess that means I should head upstairs and get showered! We slept until 12:00 today. We were up until 2:00 watching The Fast & The Furious because I hadn't seen all of it. It's second only to The Matrix as The Monkey's favorite movie.
Also, I got my ring yesterday! It's SOOOO pretty! I tried to get a decent pic of it but my camera SUCKS at the macro function. The inscriptions were smaller than I expected (the website photo makes them look huge!) but the stones are just gorgeous. Sapphire and Blue Topaz really do sit well together. ;)
So far Lamictal has caused me NO grief. I keep checking myself for any hint/signs of a rash and I have none. Also, NO HEADACHES to date. Hoorah! I was pretty energetic yesterday. I got up early to watch the kiddos while my sister went to D-Town to pick up her hubby from the hospital. (He just had back surgery again.) When I put Madison down for a nap I started putting away all the [clean] laundry that had piled up since we flooded. I also did all of the dirty laundry so I had a mountain of clean clothes to fold and put away. I despise laundry! But I got it all done and then spent the rest of my afternoon reorganizing drawers. The Monkey has his own chest of drawers and all of my stuff is taking up the dresser and the [larger] chest of drawers. Yikes! Me thinks it's time to downsize. Our hanging clothes rack is packed full as well. I would like to go through those clothes and pull down all of my work clothes and put them in a bin and take them to storage. That would free up a LOT of space. But we'll see. It was a nice productive day and I was thrilled to have enough energy to buckle down and do it. I haven't had focused energy like that in a while. I was all Wow the Lamictal is working already! until I started doing other things that were more indicative of being hypomanic more than anything. Oh wells. At least it's not giving me any side effects.
Ok, time to go shower! I need to get primped and prettied for dinner and the movies. Which will involve makeup (of course) and flat ironing my hair!
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Saturday, April 18, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
screw tax day... happy 5th anniversary to us!
Everywhere I turn today I'm reading about the Tax Day Teaparties and all things political. It's really kind of on my nerves. Yes, this is going to be a ME ME ME post. :P
It really and truly is not my fault that The Monkey and I got hitched on tax day. It just so happens that we officially started dating on April 14th and I wanted to get married a year to the day that we'd started dating. But when I called to schedule our "ceremony" I was told that the judge wouldn't be in that day. So they scheduled me for the 15th. And now we have two anniversaries the more "recognized" of which happens to fall on tax day. [eyeroll]
But oh well.
My Monkey is good to me. He makes me happy even if I'm not capable of feeling the happiness he brings me all of the time due to my stupid brain cooties. He is the reason for my existance, though. He's not particularly romantic so I wasn't expecting today to be any different than any other day. After all, I got what I wanted as an anniversary gift already. (It's on its way; Walmart.com says it should be here by the end of next week. [squee!]) And I bought The Monkey his MP3 player last week as his gift. I wasn't expecting anything else. We never do anything particularly special for one another on our anniversary. We usually resign to a nice, usually sushi, dinner out and a good happy anniversary romp later. :P But this year he surprised me. (Which was nice being it's our fifth and all.) He came home for lunch and said he was working until six even though Banana gave him a choice of working an hour overtime or going home early. I was okay with it because we didn't have any plans for tonight anyway. So imagine my surprise when he walks in the door at just after 6:00 with yellow roses, chocolate, and a card in tow. [melt] He said he got me yellow roses because yellow is my favorite color. He didn't think I needed red because, well, I already knows he loves me. :P The card, though... the card was the BEST.
Just an FYI, The Monkey has a fantastic sense of humor. It's one of the biggest things that made me fall for him. Every time he picked me up for work or after work or came over to see me he had a new joke to tell me. And he makes me laugh more often than anyone in my life ever has. So it came as no surprise that the card was funny. But my GAWD it wasn't just funny it was funny with meaning.
I nearly fell out laughing! :P
He was supposed to be off tomorrow but they gave him the option of getting Saturday off instead and he took it, of course. So instead of doing something tomorrow we're planning on having our dinner on Saturday followed by going to see Fast & Furious at the theater. Hoorah!
It really and truly is not my fault that The Monkey and I got hitched on tax day. It just so happens that we officially started dating on April 14th and I wanted to get married a year to the day that we'd started dating. But when I called to schedule our "ceremony" I was told that the judge wouldn't be in that day. So they scheduled me for the 15th. And now we have two anniversaries the more "recognized" of which happens to fall on tax day. [eyeroll]
But oh well.
My Monkey is good to me. He makes me happy even if I'm not capable of feeling the happiness he brings me all of the time due to my stupid brain cooties. He is the reason for my existance, though. He's not particularly romantic so I wasn't expecting today to be any different than any other day. After all, I got what I wanted as an anniversary gift already. (It's on its way; Walmart.com says it should be here by the end of next week. [squee!]) And I bought The Monkey his MP3 player last week as his gift. I wasn't expecting anything else. We never do anything particularly special for one another on our anniversary. We usually resign to a nice, usually sushi, dinner out and a good happy anniversary romp later. :P But this year he surprised me. (Which was nice being it's our fifth and all.) He came home for lunch and said he was working until six even though Banana gave him a choice of working an hour overtime or going home early. I was okay with it because we didn't have any plans for tonight anyway. So imagine my surprise when he walks in the door at just after 6:00 with yellow roses, chocolate, and a card in tow. [melt] He said he got me yellow roses because yellow is my favorite color. He didn't think I needed red because, well, I already knows he loves me. :P The card, though... the card was the BEST.
Just an FYI, The Monkey has a fantastic sense of humor. It's one of the biggest things that made me fall for him. Every time he picked me up for work or after work or came over to see me he had a new joke to tell me. And he makes me laugh more often than anyone in my life ever has. So it came as no surprise that the card was funny. But my GAWD it wasn't just funny it was funny with meaning.
Front:
To my wife on our anniversary...
You're my lover...
my pal...
my therapist...
my coach...
my teacher...
my playmate...
Inside:
...and my very best friend.
And I'm madly in love with each and every one of you!
Happy Anniversary!
I nearly fell out laughing! :P
He was supposed to be off tomorrow but they gave him the option of getting Saturday off instead and he took it, of course. So instead of doing something tomorrow we're planning on having our dinner on Saturday followed by going to see Fast & Furious at the theater. Hoorah!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
all that glitters...
Diamonds are supposed to be a girl's best friend. Somewhere down the line it was written that women were supposed to love and cherish all things sparkly. I guess I'm not much of a girl because I'm really not that into jewelry. My jewelry box is filled mostly with mismatched pieces of sterling silver that I hardly ever wear. All of the gold jewelry I own -- save for my engagement ring -- I got from my mom. The most "valuable" (if we're talking what is worth the most money) jewelry I own are a pair of white gold heart earings and the matching white gold necklace and pendant (gift from Mom), a white gold rainbow sapphire circle pendant and necklace (also a gift from mom), a white gold ring with three rows of tiny, tiny diamonds (was my Grandmothers, passed on to me by my late Aunt), my wedding band (10k white gold), and my engagement ring (14k white gold with 1 ct of diamonds). Anything else I wear is pure "bling". Shiny cubic zirconias usually set in sterling silver. Who cares if it's real? [shrug] I just don't get the big deal behind having a bunch of diamonds. To be honest, I prefer the look of Swarovski crystal. They sparkle more, I think.
This nonchalance I have towards jewelry seems strange to me. My mom is a jewelry fanatic. She has a couple of pieces that are worth up around the $10,000 mark. (FWIW my parents are not wealthy by any means.) Sadly my mom has pawned a great deal of jewelry over the years and her "collection" has dwindled to mostly a lot of "bling" these days. (Although there is one piece that I've been eyeballing hopefully. A white gold rainbow sapphire tennis bracelet that would match my pendant oh-so-well. Heh.)
Despite my reservations towards purchasing expensive jewelry, I have been leaning towards asking The Monkey for something glittery for our upcoming fifth anniversary. Don't get me wrong -- I do like diamonds. I'm just not overly zealous about purchasing them. But I figure I have to have something to pass on to my kids or nieces someday.
So I started looking at Irish Claddaugh anniversary sets. Most I could find were only available in sterling silver. While I like silver very much, I feel like it would be "downgrading" from what we currently wear. Most of the white gold (BTW, I am NOT a fan of yellow gold) sets I've found were just completely out of my price range. After becoming frustrated I turned my search towards something else. The Monkey is perfectly content with our current wedding bands and finding an anniversary band that works with both my wedding band and engagment ring is going to be next to impossible as they weren't bought as a part of any set. They're both very generic. [shrug] Maybe for our 10th (hahahaha) anniversary I'll pester The Monkey into buying an entirely new wedding set for the two of us. (Besides that, I have this notion that I'm going to plan a "real" wedding for our 10th anniversary anyhow. And you're all invited. :P)
But still, I want something shiny damnit. I want to go "oooh... look what my husband got me!" to friends and family alike. So I started looking at couples rings. I'm torn between a few different ones that I've found. I do NOT want anything marquis shaped. Ugh. Marquis shaped stones catch on everything. I'm not at all a fan of jewelry that isn't practical.
So here are the contenders for the moment:
This nonchalance I have towards jewelry seems strange to me. My mom is a jewelry fanatic. She has a couple of pieces that are worth up around the $10,000 mark. (FWIW my parents are not wealthy by any means.) Sadly my mom has pawned a great deal of jewelry over the years and her "collection" has dwindled to mostly a lot of "bling" these days. (Although there is one piece that I've been eyeballing hopefully. A white gold rainbow sapphire tennis bracelet that would match my pendant oh-so-well. Heh.)
Despite my reservations towards purchasing expensive jewelry, I have been leaning towards asking The Monkey for something glittery for our upcoming fifth anniversary. Don't get me wrong -- I do like diamonds. I'm just not overly zealous about purchasing them. But I figure I have to have something to pass on to my kids or nieces someday.
So I started looking at Irish Claddaugh anniversary sets. Most I could find were only available in sterling silver. While I like silver very much, I feel like it would be "downgrading" from what we currently wear. Most of the white gold (BTW, I am NOT a fan of yellow gold) sets I've found were just completely out of my price range. After becoming frustrated I turned my search towards something else. The Monkey is perfectly content with our current wedding bands and finding an anniversary band that works with both my wedding band and engagment ring is going to be next to impossible as they weren't bought as a part of any set. They're both very generic. [shrug] Maybe for our 10th (hahahaha) anniversary I'll pester The Monkey into buying an entirely new wedding set for the two of us. (Besides that, I have this notion that I'm going to plan a "real" wedding for our 10th anniversary anyhow. And you're all invited. :P)
But still, I want something shiny damnit. I want to go "oooh... look what my husband got me!" to friends and family alike. So I started looking at couples rings. I'm torn between a few different ones that I've found. I do NOT want anything marquis shaped. Ugh. Marquis shaped stones catch on everything. I'm not at all a fan of jewelry that isn't practical.
So here are the contenders for the moment:
- This one is my favorite so far. It's just so... sweet. So far I'm leaning towards this one. (Plus this one comes with actual birthstones vs. Austrian crystals.)
- This is my second favorite. It's simple, yet sophisticated? Whatever. I just like the emerald cut stones and diamond accents. I'm a little bummed that they don't offer it in white gold, though. Only silver or yellow gold. (Maybe what really draws me to this one is the fact that it's shown in our birthstones. Nice that we're both blue, huh?)
Monday, March 2, 2009
there's something that I can't quite explain...
The Monkey and I don't really have a song, per se. There are plenty of songs that remind me of him and I am sure there's at least one that reminds him of me. So there are plenty of songs out there that remind me of The Monkey. Certainly all things Metallica because it's his favorite band. And Mr. Big's The Next to Be With You because it's the first song he ever played for me on the guitar. And Pink Floyd's Wish You Were Here because I can see (and hear) him singing the lyrics we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl... year after year in my mind's eye. Blurry by Puddle of Mudd was the first ring tone I ever assigned him (though I'm not exactly sure why). And I remember his [ex]sister-in-law busting us in the middle of impromptu sex in the computer room while downloading Red Hot Chili Peppers (The Zephyr Song was playing if I do remember correctly). And I remember marvelling at how much he sounded just like Chris Cornell back when Like a Stone was all over the radio. The list goes on... no really, I could go on forever. (But I won't because it seems my iPod is going to be severely crippled someday!)
Still, The Monkey and I have never exchanged songs. But recently I found a song by Blue October that I can't stop listening to over and over and over and thinking about my husband. Not only is a lovely song but it just fits. It fits better than any song I've ever tried to make fit.
Blue October -- Calling You
Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away
and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away
well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you
i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
Still, The Monkey and I have never exchanged songs. But recently I found a song by Blue October that I can't stop listening to over and over and over and thinking about my husband. Not only is a lovely song but it just fits. It fits better than any song I've ever tried to make fit.
Blue October -- Calling You
Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away
and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away
well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you
i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
Friday, April 4, 2008
Sanity vs. TTC
After 5 years of this bullshit I don't even really know 100% for sure that I want kids anymore. If it was meant to be, surely it would've happened by now. Ugh. I hate this indifference.
My biggest issue right now is my mental health/instability. I'm going crazy on a daily basis. I'm headed to my pdoc in about 15 minutes where we'll probably decide to put me back on Lithium because I need some sort of mood stabilization and I need it now. Lithium is completely contraindicated in pregnancy so the question remains... sanity or TTC?
I think I'm going with sanity for now. Like I said, I can't even say for sure that I want a baby/kids anymore. The big problem here is that Tony does know 100% for sure that he wants kids.
I'm afraid my marriage is falling apart and it's all because my body doesn't work the way it's supposed to. I don't know what I'll do if I lose the love of my life because I'm infertile and/or crazy.
Life sucks, understand?
My biggest issue right now is my mental health/instability. I'm going crazy on a daily basis. I'm headed to my pdoc in about 15 minutes where we'll probably decide to put me back on Lithium because I need some sort of mood stabilization and I need it now. Lithium is completely contraindicated in pregnancy so the question remains... sanity or TTC?
I think I'm going with sanity for now. Like I said, I can't even say for sure that I want a baby/kids anymore. The big problem here is that Tony does know 100% for sure that he wants kids.
I'm afraid my marriage is falling apart and it's all because my body doesn't work the way it's supposed to. I don't know what I'll do if I lose the love of my life because I'm infertile and/or crazy.
Life sucks, understand?
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