We saw a heartbeat today! It was immediate and the tears and giggles came quickly. My mom and sister went with me since The Monkey had to work. My mom asked the nurse if she saw just one. I insisted that there was only one last week so there was only going to be one this week.
Turns out... not so much. One gestational sac... two yolk sacs and two beautiful little heartbeats! :D
We were a bit shocked (er.. still are) but OH SO happy!! <3
Monday, November 22, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
another milestone...
The further this pregnancy progresses, the more fascinated I become. I still feel like this is an out of body experience. I got so used to watching other people go through what I longed to go through. It's... odd.
Today we went in for our first ultrasound. I am 5w2d so I prepared myself to 'not see much' on the screen. The Monkey was funny. Through all of this, if you can believe it, the man has never been in a room for an ultrasound. So when I promptly went to stripping from the waist down he looked kind of puzzled. As soon as the dildo cam was inserted we immediately saw a round black bubble amidst the seas of gray. After a few more seconds, a tiny white circle inside the black bubble -- the yolk sac. By LMP I am 5w4d (yeah...we all know how accurate that measurement is) but by the measurements she took of the gestational sac, I am 5w2d.
RELIEF.
My beta came back a few hours later. Normally they call and give results (especially if it's bad news) but this time I decided to check my patient voicemail and there was a message waiting. My first beta (12 DPO) was 31.6. Second (16 DPO) was 344. Today's (23 DPO) was 6334. To say I'm excited is an understatement. I am positively elated. This is the furthest we've made it! And things still look good. With every milestone I allow myself to get a teensy more excited. I go back next Monday for a repeat ultrasound and will hopefully get to see a beautiful flicker.
I am still mostly symptom free. Even my boobs don't hurt like they did that first week (when my progesterone was lower -- go figure). No nausea (yet); no aversions. Maybe some "cravings" (mostly I just don't want sweets like I used to; I honestly want savory/salty foods) and definitely having to pee more often (or I'm just hyper aware of it... or not since I'm having to get up in the middle of the night at least once but more often than not it's twice or more).
Today we went in for our first ultrasound. I am 5w2d so I prepared myself to 'not see much' on the screen. The Monkey was funny. Through all of this, if you can believe it, the man has never been in a room for an ultrasound. So when I promptly went to stripping from the waist down he looked kind of puzzled. As soon as the dildo cam was inserted we immediately saw a round black bubble amidst the seas of gray. After a few more seconds, a tiny white circle inside the black bubble -- the yolk sac. By LMP I am 5w4d (yeah...we all know how accurate that measurement is) but by the measurements she took of the gestational sac, I am 5w2d.
RELIEF.
My beta came back a few hours later. Normally they call and give results (especially if it's bad news) but this time I decided to check my patient voicemail and there was a message waiting. My first beta (12 DPO) was 31.6. Second (16 DPO) was 344. Today's (23 DPO) was 6334. To say I'm excited is an understatement. I am positively elated. This is the furthest we've made it! And things still look good. With every milestone I allow myself to get a teensy more excited. I go back next Monday for a repeat ultrasound and will hopefully get to see a beautiful flicker.
I am still mostly symptom free. Even my boobs don't hurt like they did that first week (when my progesterone was lower -- go figure). No nausea (yet); no aversions. Maybe some "cravings" (mostly I just don't want sweets like I used to; I honestly want savory/salty foods) and definitely having to pee more often (or I'm just hyper aware of it... or not since I'm having to get up in the middle of the night at least once but more often than not it's twice or more).
Saturday, November 13, 2010
another busy Saturday
Which is good because it is keeping my mind off of Monday.
I still don't feel pregnant. So I've been periodically peeing on cheapie Internet strips to reassure myself. The only things that are different are my boobs (they are relentlessly sore most of the time) and my heart. My heart? Yes, my heart. I have been having non-stop heart palpitations for the past week. It coincides with the rise in hCG so I'm going to assume it's pregnancy related. I've dealt with them before but have been told by a few people that their vengeant return could be related to being pregnant so I'm planning on mentioning it on Monday.
Monday. My first ultrasound. My ultrasound. It hasn't sunk in yet. I am five weeks today.
I still don't feel pregnant. So I've been periodically peeing on cheapie Internet strips to reassure myself. The only things that are different are my boobs (they are relentlessly sore most of the time) and my heart. My heart? Yes, my heart. I have been having non-stop heart palpitations for the past week. It coincides with the rise in hCG so I'm going to assume it's pregnancy related. I've dealt with them before but have been told by a few people that their vengeant return could be related to being pregnant so I'm planning on mentioning it on Monday.
Monday. My first ultrasound. My ultrasound. It hasn't sunk in yet. I am five weeks today.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Mmm... words taste GOOD!
I am eating my words like crazy right now. Today's beta came back at an astonishing 344. I was hoping for something in the 120s but this... wow! I am freaking THRILLED beyond the telling of it.
Oh, yeah... and I was wishing for some sign of pregnancy. Any sign. My ta tas are sore. That'll work. :P
My progesterone is still on the lower side (though it went from 10.4 to 23.6!) so in addition to shoving capsules up my hoo-hah three times a day I get to start PIO shots also.
Completely and totally worth it.
Oh, yeah... and I was wishing for some sign of pregnancy. Any sign. My ta tas are sore. That'll work. :P
My progesterone is still on the lower side (though it went from 10.4 to 23.6!) so in addition to shoving capsules up my hoo-hah three times a day I get to start PIO shots also.
Completely and totally worth it.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
looks like I'll be eating my words
Yep. I went in for my beta this morning (at 9:00 AM which meant leaving here at quarter after 7:00) and then I waited. And waited. And waited.
And went shopping in the meantime (I'm doing a Crimson Tide cake for my sister's friend's son's 16th birthday this weekend). I tried to kill as much time as possible. I'd stuck an Answer Early Result in my purse and it was burning a hole in it. After about two and a half hours of holding my bladder I caved and slipped into the bathroom in Ulta and busted out my pee stick.
Sadly, I didn't see a line. There might have been something faint; barely visible. I was disheartened, I will admit. But the thing was, I'd gotten a really strong positive on a cheapie strip early in the morning (but a negative on a Clearblue Digital).
You want to talk about HPT HELL.
Usually I get results fairly quick. I knew they wouldn't leave my results on my patient voicemail but I kept calling it anyway. Of course today of all days they didn't call me until 4:00 PM. By then I was going nuts. I peed on two more cheapie strips (both were positive immediately) and decided to dunk my last digital when the second one came up with a really good line. I was staring at that little blinking hourglass when my phone rang. Just as the nurse said "Congratulations it was positive!" the digital popped up "Pregnant."
Shock. Disbelief. Excitment. Fear. All of the above.
My beta was 31.6 and my progesterone had dropped from 25.7 to 10.5 so they increased my supplements (three times a day up the hoo-hah).
So, that's that. It has been three and a half years since my miscarriage. I do hope that this little one (or little ones) stick around for the long haul. Yesterday I laid on the bed and The Monkey moved in like he was going to "squish" me (we do this frequently) but I screamed "NO! There might be a baby in there!" (I was kidding with him, of course.) He said "Oh ok. Don't wanna squish the sea monkey." Heh.
[deep breath]
And went shopping in the meantime (I'm doing a Crimson Tide cake for my sister's friend's son's 16th birthday this weekend). I tried to kill as much time as possible. I'd stuck an Answer Early Result in my purse and it was burning a hole in it. After about two and a half hours of holding my bladder I caved and slipped into the bathroom in Ulta and busted out my pee stick.
Sadly, I didn't see a line. There might have been something faint; barely visible. I was disheartened, I will admit. But the thing was, I'd gotten a really strong positive on a cheapie strip early in the morning (but a negative on a Clearblue Digital).
You want to talk about HPT HELL.
Usually I get results fairly quick. I knew they wouldn't leave my results on my patient voicemail but I kept calling it anyway. Of course today of all days they didn't call me until 4:00 PM. By then I was going nuts. I peed on two more cheapie strips (both were positive immediately) and decided to dunk my last digital when the second one came up with a really good line. I was staring at that little blinking hourglass when my phone rang. Just as the nurse said "Congratulations it was positive!" the digital popped up "Pregnant."
Shock. Disbelief. Excitment. Fear. All of the above.
My beta was 31.6 and my progesterone had dropped from 25.7 to 10.5 so they increased my supplements (three times a day up the hoo-hah).
So, that's that. It has been three and a half years since my miscarriage. I do hope that this little one (or little ones) stick around for the long haul. Yesterday I laid on the bed and The Monkey moved in like he was going to "squish" me (we do this frequently) but I screamed "NO! There might be a baby in there!" (I was kidding with him, of course.) He said "Oh ok. Don't wanna squish the sea monkey." Heh.
[deep breath]
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
IUI #2 = probable fail
Which sucks because I was stupid enough to get my hopes up when the Clearblue Easy +/- test came up with a + within a minute. But I know better than to trust blue dye tests. And the Answer I took with the same cup of wizz was negative. I thought I saw something on the ICs I bought but I'm sure now that it was my imagination because the CBE Digital said 'Not Pregnant.' I am 10 DPO. I know that there's still a sliver of a chance of hope that things might change between now and my beta on Thursday morning but I'm not betting on it.
I'm scheduled for another laparoscopy (#3) on November 12th. As soon as I get the results from my beta on Thursday I plan to book our hotel (or, y'know, eat my words). We stayed at a really awesome hotel for our IUI and I want to stay there again. Their breakfast was good and they had an evening snackbar thing included with the room. (We missed out on that for the IUI because of the fire on I-65 and the two hour traffic jam we hit because of it.)
I'm not sure what to feel at the moment. I'm just... so tired. Our RE wants to get one more cycle in before the end of the year. I guess that means I'll be getting baselines right around my 30th birthday.
I can only hope that this lap will have similar results to lap #1 (wherein I got PG the cycle following).
I have to say there is a tiny, tiny part of me that's looking forward to a month off. I am definitely looking forward to asking for BCPs and hopefully losing a few of the pounds that I packed on these past three cycles (two IUIs and one natural). Fifteen pounds to be precise. All of my jeans are snug. Not tight but these are the very same jeans that were falling off me.
I'm scheduled for another laparoscopy (#3) on November 12th. As soon as I get the results from my beta on Thursday I plan to book our hotel (or, y'know, eat my words). We stayed at a really awesome hotel for our IUI and I want to stay there again. Their breakfast was good and they had an evening snackbar thing included with the room. (We missed out on that for the IUI because of the fire on I-65 and the two hour traffic jam we hit because of it.)
I'm not sure what to feel at the moment. I'm just... so tired. Our RE wants to get one more cycle in before the end of the year. I guess that means I'll be getting baselines right around my 30th birthday.
I can only hope that this lap will have similar results to lap #1 (wherein I got PG the cycle following).
I have to say there is a tiny, tiny part of me that's looking forward to a month off. I am definitely looking forward to asking for BCPs and hopefully losing a few of the pounds that I packed on these past three cycles (two IUIs and one natural). Fifteen pounds to be precise. All of my jeans are snug. Not tight but these are the very same jeans that were falling off me.
Friday, October 22, 2010
We decided...
That if we get pregnant with twins we are going to call them "The Twinkies." :P
Follie scan went fantabulous this morning. I have four measurable follies and a smaller 11mm that most likely won't catch up. Measurements were 18mm, 2 x 15mm, and 13mm. My E2 was a stellar 532! I think maybe the DIM supplement I've been taking is working quite well!
So, I took my hCG trigger tonight and we are headed to Bham tomorrow evening and staying overnight because IUI will be at 7:30 AM Saturday and The Monkey said he didn't know how "in the mood" he would be if we had to get up at 3:30 AM and drive! Can't says I blame him there! We are thinking about catching a movie tomorrow evening.
In other news I am incredibly excited about Halloween! We are having it at my sister's instead of here and her garage is perfect. The walls are dark and it kind of feels cave-like. We have big plans for decorating. The Monkey and I stopped in Spencer's this afternoon and I'll be damned if I didn't find some really AWESOME decorations that were on clearance! I paid $31 for two eerie looking mirrors with skulls holding black roses (they have a candle holder in front of the mirror). Then I found two neat looking skull things -- one is a tea light holder and the other is an LED thing. Really super cool. I am thinking we'll go back to Spencer's and check out some of the other things. I'm also (of course!) doing all of the baking and sweet snacks. We're also going to do punch and some savory snacks.
Yeah. Super excited!
Then it's going to be time to prep to make my nephews' birthday cakes by the 10th. And then Madison's birthday cake at the end of November. And my mom wants me to make a cake for her boss' birthday. Then my sister's birthday at the beginning of December.
Anyone want to volunteer to make my birthday cake?? It's my 30th after all! :P
Ok, going to bed now and hoping that I can get some rest and that tomorrow goes by quickly!
Oh, and also there was this:
We went out to eat before coming home and I was terribly tickled by our fortune's. The Monkey's is on top, mine is on the bottom. :D
Follie scan went fantabulous this morning. I have four measurable follies and a smaller 11mm that most likely won't catch up. Measurements were 18mm, 2 x 15mm, and 13mm. My E2 was a stellar 532! I think maybe the DIM supplement I've been taking is working quite well!
So, I took my hCG trigger tonight and we are headed to Bham tomorrow evening and staying overnight because IUI will be at 7:30 AM Saturday and The Monkey said he didn't know how "in the mood" he would be if we had to get up at 3:30 AM and drive! Can't says I blame him there! We are thinking about catching a movie tomorrow evening.
In other news I am incredibly excited about Halloween! We are having it at my sister's instead of here and her garage is perfect. The walls are dark and it kind of feels cave-like. We have big plans for decorating. The Monkey and I stopped in Spencer's this afternoon and I'll be damned if I didn't find some really AWESOME decorations that were on clearance! I paid $31 for two eerie looking mirrors with skulls holding black roses (they have a candle holder in front of the mirror). Then I found two neat looking skull things -- one is a tea light holder and the other is an LED thing. Really super cool. I am thinking we'll go back to Spencer's and check out some of the other things. I'm also (of course!) doing all of the baking and sweet snacks. We're also going to do punch and some savory snacks.
Yeah. Super excited!
Then it's going to be time to prep to make my nephews' birthday cakes by the 10th. And then Madison's birthday cake at the end of November. And my mom wants me to make a cake for her boss' birthday. Then my sister's birthday at the beginning of December.
Anyone want to volunteer to make my birthday cake?? It's my 30th after all! :P
Ok, going to bed now and hoping that I can get some rest and that tomorrow goes by quickly!
Oh, and also there was this:
We went out to eat before coming home and I was terribly tickled by our fortune's. The Monkey's is on top, mine is on the bottom. :D
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